Sliding Doors

One of my favourite movies is Sliding Doors- the concept of what would happen if one little thing in your life changed is fascinating.

I wonder what my life would be like if I had been diagnosed as bipolar at an earlier age.

I would have been more confident in high school... or would I? The people who seemed really confident are the ones that I run into in Wal-Mart with three kids when I return home.

I would have been more balanced whilst at University...how would that have affected my college sweetheart and I? There was one period of time after we had been dating for a year where he wanted to date other people but chickened out on breaking up with me (I found this out years later) for more than a week or so. I was an emotional mess, catapulted into depression, which (I think) guilted him into re-starting our relationship. He was the man I married. Then Divorced.

If I had been on meds earlier I would have remained in my marriage. IMAGINE! I simply cannot. No London? NO A----? No way!

To get remarried in the UK I have to prove that I am divorced so I've been searching for my divorce papers. This has led to an online search for my ex as I may have to contact him. I found out some very interesting things:

Whilst we separated in November of 2002, the divorce was final in January of 2004...

He remarried in 2005.
His wife graduated from University in 2007.
(Most people graduate at the age of 22).
Sidenote: He and I graduated in 1999.
Hmmm.
He and his wife teach a Sunday School class for young adults.
He is teaching history at a middle school
(What happened to his dream of pursuing law? Even when we were separating he was saying he still wanted to escape teaching. )

What I found really interesting about this is the parallels to when he and I were together:
We worked with the young people at church.
He taught history at a middle school.

So, four years after our divorce, it appears as if his life is pretty much the same. My life has changed dramatically. I have changed dramatically and for the better!

Thank God the door of Bipolar opened when it did.